They’re Taking All The Pregnancy Karma!
on’t you hate it when you begin to lose your damn mind? When you start believing something that clearly makes absolutely no sense, but your mind for some reason starts to accept it? I’m in one of those states today.
I was doing pretty well with my denial approach to this current 2 week wait until [...]
42
ell I can run from it no longer. Today I turned 42. Ugh, that sounds so damn old.
I spent the morning running to Cooper for more stupid blood tests and another ultrasound. They just want to make sure that you don’t need any estrogen or progesterone support during this two week wait. Unfortunately I had [...]
Rainbows, Milagro, and Merck, Oh My!
Rainbows
Tonight as I was driving home from work, late of course, I got to witness something that always fills me with such awe and wonder: a full rainbow. It was such a welcome sight on a mostly gloomy day. Initially I was sad because I didn’t have my camera with me, then I remembered…I’ve got [...]
The Measure of My Failure
ou know that dream a lot of people seem to have about finding themselves in a classroom, naked, and taking a test they know nothing about and havent studied for? That dream has been my experience of infertility.
Those of you who know me understand what a Type-A, Dr. Fix-it, problem-solver that I am. The challenge [...]
4 Is The Magic Number!
irls and boys,
The magic number for today is 4. Yes 4.
Dr. Brasile accessed all 7 of my follicles. The dominant follicle was empty (no big surprise to everyone but Dr. Choe) and the two on the left were empty as well. But hooray hooray, she said she retrieved 4 good eggs from the remaining [...]
This Is It
don’t think that I’m going to sleep too well tonight. Tomorrow (actually today) is the big day: my final IVF retrieval. After all the drama of the past two and a half weeks, by this evening I’ll either be hopeful or crushed. Of course I am hoping for the former but expecting the latter. [...]
Better Now…
thank you guys for your support during my trials with Cooper. But today I had some good news all in the form of Dr. Brasile. My experience just went from horrible to wonderful in one day. (OK, she couldn’t completely make up for the trauma of last week, but we are off to a [...]
More Cooper Center Insanity
I just got back from having my nails done. After the latest Cooper insanity, I had a 30 minute crying jag. Mason suggested that I go do something to take care of myself. Today I had my ultrasound. The lead follicle is at 18 and there is one other at 12 on the right and [...]
My Final IVF Cycle or Reasons #13, 14 & 15 of Why I Hate Cooper!
should update my blog on all my recent drama. On Tuesday May 3rd, I started what is to be my final IVF cycle before moving on to donor eggs. I planned to cycle on the DL, since talking about my progress just gets me more anxious. But then all the shit started to hit [...]
DSW is Dangerous
Mason and I went shopping on Sunday. We split up because he wanted to go to TJ Maxx and I preferred to visit the new DSW that had just opened. We agreed to meet back at the car in 20 minutes.Here’s the damage I managed to do in that short time just by visiting the [...]