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The Census & Civil Disobedience: No Check Box for My Kidlet

Excuse me while I have a bit of a rant today, my friends. The subject of my rant is actually nothing new, I’m sorry to report. It actually began with the last census in 2000, it seems. But at that time I was either unaware, unenlightened, or not close enough to the issue for it […]


Sick of Sorry

I’ve been thinking about this post for the past few days now. I need to preface my words with a very clear thank you to all my friends for their support and encouragement during this recent cycle and for all the times in the past. I am very, very grateful to you all. Now that […]


Well At Least I Get To Drink Again

That is the one bright spot in today’s news. That and I don’t have to stick myself with those evil needles any more. In case you haven’t figured it out by now, my test was negative. Totally negative. I’m sad, but I will live. Honestly. We’ve gotten halfway through the process for adoption. Next stop, […]


This Tale May Not Have A Happy Ending

You know how the doctor always tells you to wait for your beta and not to POAS. You know how you never listen? Yeah well I chose not to listen yesterday and tested with a FRER test. There was only one line, not the two I had hoped for. It just broke my heart. After […]


Three Magic Beans

This is a story of an old princess/queen/whatever and her 3 magic beans. The old princess/queen/whatever flew to Cape Town from London last week in the lovely area of the airplane that is called First Class. The P/Q/W was truly amazed. Never had she experienced such luxury. She was given a bed (yes, a seat […]


Where Art Thou Aunt Flo?

I’ve been waiting for Aunt Flo. Waiting all month for her visit, in fact. I feel something like the characters in Waiting for Godot. I am waiting for something to happen to relieve me from the limbo in which I exist. At the same time, I’m afraid of what might happen as I leave this […]


Heartbeats

Yesterday was Shrink Day. Today was OB Day, the day of my first appointment with Dr. Mama. Of course I was late. Getting into Center City from the outer reaches of Montgomery County is ridiculous. Every time I think I’ve got the best route figured out, I end up arriving 30 minutes later than I […]


Guilt Versus Gratitude-Part I

Today was Shrink Day. I hadn’t been in about 2 weeks because of my illness the other day. She asked how I was doing, and I really tried to sound better when I replied, “OK, I guess,” but she wasn’t buying it. I’m still depressed. Even after stopping the estrace and progesterone shots, my mood […]


Crap & Bollocks

Let me preface this entire post by reiterating that I am thrilled that my DE cycle was successful. I feel blessed to be pregnant. I had long given up on the thought that a happy ending could find me. I am so, so happy to be pregnant. Now that this has been made clear, I […]


Nearly Devastated

I’ve had a very traumatic day. I will not get over it soon. This morning I woke up feeling so nauseous that I was barely able to eat. Once I finished eating, I stood up and discovered that my bleeding had started again. It wasn’t as much and there weren’t any cramps this time, but […]


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