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Lung Disease & Shifting Perspectives-Part II

The Crap I seem to have a very ridiculous default position. No matter how far I’ve come, or how many years I’ve had in therapy, when the world starts falling down around me, my default belief is that I am deserving of punishment. Whatever is happening: health problems, marital difficulty, or zombie uprising, the belief […]


Lung Disease & Shifting Perspectives

I call this diptych, Perspectives. It’s the same shot with two different processings. When I look at it, I find my eyes being drawn to one interpretation of these water droplets, then moving to the other. Somber/heartening. Moody/incipient. I cycle back and forth with evocation. This diptych represents my life during the past two months. […]


Crookedfoot Revised

Hello friends, I’m still hobbling along on my crutches, my foot casted until June 29th. I cannot begin to explain the difference between using crutches at age 12 (when I sprained my kneecap doing The Drop to Groove Line in the audition for the school talent show) or using them in the 4th grade (when […]


Gone Baby Gone

When someone had a negative breast MRI in June, it is very hard to fathom how one is supposed to undergo a MRI-directed core biopsy in July. What tissue does one biopsy when there was nothing abnormal seen on the breast MRI (the definitive test) in the first place? This morning, after being stuck back […]


Friday is B-Day

Nope, Friday isn’t my birthday. I’ve already had one of those this year and that was enough. No, Friday is my biopsy day. I’m going to have this stupid, ridiculous, nonsensical biopsy despite having a negative breast MRI. Yes, I’m still pissed, but I’m a lot less freaked out than the last time I wrote. […]


Denial Ain’t Working No More

There’s been something that has been going on with me medically for a couple of months now. I haven’t blogged about it or mentioned it before because I was employing my usual method of dealing with issues I don’t feel like addressing: denial. Until today it’s been working. It started with my mammogram back in […]


Denial Ain’t Working No More

Originally published at Welcome To The Dollhouse. You can comment here or there. here’s been something that has been going on with me medically for a couple of months now. I haven’t blogged about it or mentioned it before because I was employing my usual method of dealing with issues I don’t feel like addressing: […]


Obnoxious, That’s Me

I can’t say that I mean to be obnoxious. Honestly, 99% of the time, I’m not really obnoxious. Yes I can be pedantic, but I try hard not to be obnoxious. However, the other day, I found myself torn between being obnoxious or not passing on relevant (to my mind) information. Obnoxious won out. I […]


I Don’t Like Being A Patient

Yesterday I got admitted to the little hospital near me. This admission comes after two ambulance rides in the past week. All I can say is uncontrolled vomiting and pooping blood are both very, very bad things. I’ve got to get out of here soon. Zara’s birthday is tomorrow!


I Don’t Like Being A Patient

Originally published at Welcome To The Dollhouse. You can comment here or there. esterday I got admitted to the little hospital near me. This admission comes after two ambulance rides in the past week. All I can say is uncontrolled vomiting and pooping blood are both very, very bad things. I’ve got to get out […]


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